Sometimes you just need to Hibernate

I've been wanting to write for some time but every draft that I have written I haven't published.  It seems my dragon (aka my anger) unleashes itself when I write so I have just stuck to journaling for myself the last few months.  I am going to try another go at it today because I have talked to so many others lately that have also been feeling similar to me.  2014 wasn't the best year for my family.  We had a great loss and a lot of transitions in many different forms.  I've also encountered so much negativity on social media and just having to deal with people in general hasn't been on the fun list.

It's hard to embrace the crap when you are thigh high in it.  It's also hard to see the good that will or has come from it when you're in it.

I've also been feeling like I don't want to put myself out there as much as I did before now that I have started a new business.  I have an image that I am supposed to represent but I also want to be who I am and what is real.  It's a slippery slope for sure.  I've never been really good at censoring myself.

My best friend offered me some great advice.

  "Sometimes you just need to hibernate."

It's so true and is what I have been feeling during this winter time.  I just feel like gathering my family and a couple of friends who are family and hunkering down in our "cabin in the woods" for the winter.  Have you also been feeling less social, less energetic, just less?  I think it's a great thing to withdraw sometimes especially for me.  I love putting myself out there but it catches up with me and I need to fill my cup back up.

I had a long list of New Year's Resolutions for 2015.  A lot of things that I wanted to do more of and things that I wanted to do less of.  But my friend, Kate stated it perfectly in her very wise words.  "Be more present in my own life."  That pretty much sums it up into the perfect resolution.

How can you be more present in your own life?  What does that look like to you?

For me just to name a few:

-It's less time on my phone/computer, less time worrying about other people, less time thinking about things that I have no control over, less time drinking, less time wasting time, and less time "poking at things".  My mom has told me that I "poke at things" and I need to let things play out or give them space.  

-It's more time playing with my kids, more time exercising, more time taking care of myself, more time eating breakfast, more time reading, more time thinking about my blessings, more time outside, more time accepting the what is, more time connecting with my new community, more time focusing on grounding myself, and more time writing just for me.

So, we all probably have the same goals and we all want to do them.  It's the HOW, right?  How do you do it especially when life gives you curve balls?

Eckhart Tolle says - You suffer enough and then you just do it.  Just like that!  And maybe the dark times are still good for you just like the good times are.  I think it's the yin and yang of life.  We just have to experience it all and try to embrace even the crappy parts.  And maybe embracing the crappy parts may piss you off and you need to break something.  I think that's all good too!

So, here's to a great new year to embrace and love it all.  And to go into it with the darkness of the past and be glad for it because it is BIG motivator to "be more present in my own life."